Simple–I ask for a gift or two, and surprises, with new behaviors–my wife says, “Don’t go looking for a fight!” She’s right. I usually meander through conversations, not thinking much about what I say–not thinking of more or less as my friend Mel says of my life now, “Let God do the heavy lifting.” So is this the gift I was looking for in the beginning, and finally found Will he shoot lye and ammonia once more into his veins? Probably. Will he ignore the five-thousand and one warnings he has received about Meth? Well now I find the other is addicted to the same drug, and he was not completely honest with me, or perhaps I heard what I wanted to hear.
Remember, there is a God, a personal God through Emanuel, God with us, and at this point, I ask to many questions. I am a believer, a man believing of the cross, and my friend Thomas Kyousui, my dear friend from Earling, Iowa says, “Your friend Mel is right in that you have a right to be here.” So as my friend Pastor Jan says, “Be there for this man.” But, I believe the completion is to say, “Reach out when reached toward.” Just let it go, and perhaps his letting go will be death, and there is nothing I can do, nothing…” He has selected his own destiny–leave it be.”