My Religion is NOT for My Wife and That’s okay!!!!

You see–I have this peak religious EXPERIENCE–IT IS NOT FOR MY WIFE. She won’t let me talk about in our home, and that’s OKAY with me!!! I don’t mind, and when I forgot, she reminds me with a frown on her face. Now my experience is not unlike C S Lewis’s experience in his book SURPRISED BY JOY, and I love his books MEAR CHRISTIANITY, and THE PARALANDRA TRILOGY. These books along with GRACE by Max Lucado explain my beliefs about The New Testament. However, my wife loves and is committed to DISTURBING THE UNIVERSE by Freeman Dyson and Edith Hamilton’s Mythology, AND Scientific Explorers of the Cosmos are her forte. She was trained as a Cultural Anthropologist and there is no room for and divine intervention has absolutely no place in her vocabulary whereas faith in THE WORD of God through Jesus Christ is something I learn about every day. She is a scientist, and I am a mystic enjoying even books like Zen Mind, Beginner Mind, and Suzuki would say Buddhism never deals with religion because it simply does not explain God–it’s more a; philosophy of life and my wife will never have anything–not even to this. For her Creation even based on Darwin’s God. Tyson explains everything about the Universe, and she would call Christianity simply unknowable or even superstition though she expects the system of ethics begun by Abraham and Moses, even brotherly and sisterly love. However, she would say other cultures like the Chinese found much the same ethics, and pure Islam is also very close in terms of ethics, but none of this has much to do with God. At her closest, she might say we simply say that no one can know of the existence or nonexistence of God. I believe that David and Isah paved the way for the Son of God who is the Fulfillment of prophecy that he died on the cross of Calvery and rose from the dead to give us the beauty of enough faith for the remission of our sins, internal Grace.

We are at an impasse because I am an inspiring believer and a dear friend calls me a fresh Christian having recently been turning my life around with the help and divine love of Jesus Christ. I’m not fully there yet but I’m asking the right questions, and hate is gone. I very Much want the Love of Jesus to help me step in the full commitment to understanding scripture, the Holy Bible, the Word. So you see, we don’t speak of these things except in abstract ways where we both agree of Honesty and action to display Love. She has never said the words, “I love you.” However, in every way possible she SHOWS Love in her deeds. She has actually saved my life so many times that I can’t count them because my health is crappy. One time I was so out of it my wife and daughter had to dress me, take me to the ER where three days of observation confirmed I had actually had a reaction to meds that was killing me, and three weeks including two weeks in the Behavioral Health Hospital to wean me off a med and on to a different mood stabilizer, Only now have I been free of psychiatric intervention for a little more than a year, and now both my psychiatrist and my therapist agree that I’m mentally healthy, and I’m weaning myself away from two therapists, the one leaving treating chronic pain which I have turned entirely over to my primary care doctor who has taken me off one addictive drug and weened me down almost 40 mg down on the other pain medication. Today I’m healthy because of my wife, and I would say a boatload of prayer because with every hospitalization cam Christian clergy and prayer. Even several years as a Unitarian Universalist I told members I was a Christian and out of this experience came two great friends who believe somewhat like my wife. I would say I love the Lord and my wife is teaching me so much about honesty, this sober alcoholic of almost 31 years.

Charles Taylor C2918

Published by elgwynone

I was a University and community college instructor before retiring. I also worked in fast food restaurants, and retail stores. I am an ordinary man writing for because I want to write and because my education prepared me to write; BA English lit, MA English, EdS higher education, and MFA creative writing, free verse poetry and essays. Blogs are an answer to high-priced self-publishing. Walt Whitman had to self-publish his first 1000 copies of the 1855 edition of Leaves of Grass because in 1855 poetry did not sell. Most poets make a living in other ways than writing. Wallace Stevens was an insurance executive, and TS Eliot was a banker. Many writers teach, and always there have been writers who have written because they needed to express their thoughts and feelings. They wrote not necessarily to make money but to express "the old universal truths of the human heart" according to Faulkner. Here I reach a wider audience I missed than by self-publishing, and I stand a better chance to reach a wider audience for less expense than self-publishing. I self-published my first books, Winter from Spring, and Meditations on Gratitude; poetry and photo books which were easier to self-publish than to seek a not to seek a publisher company. This blog allows me to write for an interested audience because I write poetry and personal essays. I write for a friendly audience and present to you a slice of my writing. Perhaps you will enjoy what you read.

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