In Retrospect, We Won’t Tell

I’ve had worse–this Christianity is not new, and as I was a member, and even a committed member, how do you like that Word?, of First United Methodist, I left in a huff over my first book, not Christian enough for their Library. Hence, I knew that I had to write a second book, maintaining my Christianity in spite of all, and no all this is not new; concern for family is never new, and me hedging my bets with God so that I can say, “They believe!” Well, my wife who I understand and love with no hesitation, has made it clear. She wants no part of my renewed zeal, and that Christ has no part in her life. We have come to a truce; I will never again mention any kind of work about house, yard, grocery shopping, etc. etc. etc. AND never again will she attack any beliefs I might hold: Christian, Buddhist, Taoist, Scientific (we have no problem here). Technically, the HOUSE, etc is hers. She bought and paid for it all, and in my will, I leave it all to her, if I leave after, Laurel daughter gets it all. This is ALL spelled out in my will, and as of now, she leaves the house etc. up to the state. I am technically taken care of in other ways!

So, arrangements, note the passive voice, have been made for both of us. Meanwhile, I fret about her, Laurel in my own mind, and That’s the way it will remain–in my own heart and mind.

So, for me it’s Easter weekend, and I do Love Jesus, no different than before I was a Lutheran a decade ago, an uneasy Lutheran though my first book is in the First Lutheran Library in Sioux Falls, and both books, though I AM relatively sure they have been removed after I discontinued my memberships with Unitarian Universalist, were in All Souls Sioux Falls Church Library. BOTH BOOKS are in the Grinnell College Library, and both books are in the Platte Campus, Central Community College, Library, and of All of this I am sure! FOR JESUS, I am finally the Christian I always wanted, and I practice meditation, as I am allowed in Treeleaf online Zendo.

My Pastor, Jan Gross, Hartford United Methodist, has bought and read the second book, and he says he likes it. I know it is a very good book. I know, because of royalty checks, Meditations on Gratitude by Charles E Taylor, photos, and 55 poem sequence, has sold more than Winter from Spring, containing my CSU MFA thesis, photos, and more than 45 poems extra, by Charles Taylor. Both books remain available through Barnes and Noble, and Amazon. This means that they are indefinitely available. Bill Tremblay, and Mark Sanderson, Prof. Emeritus CSU, Unitarian Universalist Member M Div, both endorsed my book, Meditations on Gratitude, and Bill Hotchkiss, Ph D English, endorsed ane wrote a lengthy poetic analysis, introduction, of the first book  Winter from Spring. Okay, Charles, it’s time to let it all rest. Books and Family, however they are, are what they are. Let it rest.

Published by elgwyn

I was a University and community college instructor before retiring. I also worked in fast food restaurants, and retail stores. I am an ordinary man writing for because I want to write and because my education prepared me to write; BA English lit, MA English, EdS higher education, and MFA creative writing, free verse poetry and essays. Blogs are an answer to high-priced self-publishing. Walt Whitman had to self-publish his first 1000 copies of the 1855 edition of Leaves of Grass because in 1855 poetry did not sell. Most poets make a living in other ways than writing. Wallace Stevens was an insurance executive, and TS Eliot was a banker. Many writers teach, and always there have been writers who have written because they needed to express their thoughts and feelings. They wrote not necessarily to make money but to express "the old universal truths of the human heart" according to Faulkner. Here I reach a wider audience I missed than by self-publishing, and I stand a better chance to reach a wider audience for less expense than self-publishing. I self-published my first books, Winter from Spring, and Meditations on Gratitude; poetry and photo books which were easier to self-publish than to seek a not to seek a publisher company. This blog allows me to write for an interested audience because I write poetry and personal essays. I write for a friendly audience and present to you a slice of my writing. Perhaps you will enjoy what you read.

One thought on “In Retrospect, We Won’t Tell

  1. Reblogged this on poet828 and commented:

    I have written my heart out with both books–just a few tears, and both Laurel, and Marjorie have copies; Marjorie has read both, and in fact acted as secretary, editor, on much of the first!

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